Week 20 – Feeling a little SELFISH


Many months ago a friend died and my emotions got the best of me. Being in the class I asked for help and received just that. I was able to embrace the emotions which I’ve tried to hide all of my life. I wrote a Press Release about ME. Yes, this was a hurdle I had to climb over. Now the emotions are of my greatest strengths I own.

In the Lesson we are on this month. I took the wisdom hidden the words and searched for all of the meaning I could possible squeeze out. In the heart felt sense of helping others and giving something of myself. I took a step towards a vision I have had for a long time.

I rewrote the Press Release as I lay there dead. My friend Melissa is reading the Life Statement that I’ve feared to say aloud with few exceptions. The subject of death is uncomfortable at best and unwanted most if not all the time. To keep things true to my heart I left nothing out. I made it simple as the vision I’ve had for a long time.

As I restore the being I was born as. I have had so much emotions and feelings that I was afraid that the past would come back to haunt me. Now I have understood the perceptions of things was the problem, nothing else. The Limits I held were self-imposed. The creations in my mind were mostly from fear. I now create what I desire and I do that with Love leading the way.

I live with Love as my emotion of choice. I hide from nothing and know many things are out there. The world that I see now has always been there. I no longer look back in frustration and ask why? I take this day, this moment and experience Life to the fullest in everything I do. When I give my time with my family by being present now here, the Love is uncontainable within. I must give that away; my vessel is too full.

At work, many changes have taken place. Many more to come. By being present and now here, there is no room for fear. As I engage others, I give them my peace and we are better. I am just happy all the time and actually know why.

Perception of things is a choice we can make. Everything that occurs within us or in the without. We can choose how we wish to deal with it. We are being shown many ways as in the Tools they use to teach us to keep us BUSY. I have chosen to look deep within the meaning of the lesson and then GIVE everything I’ve got to earn that experience.

“Give more Get More” has a different meaning than that it had when I first heard it. I have no words to share how I see it now. I do assure you though I live what I see and understand now here.

Blessings in Your Life for all






Week 19 – So many things Touch ME

            I have not the time to write of each event in my week. So many things touch me. I spend much of my time focusing all of my energy to stay in the present moment. I do not do this to be recognized. This week I got caught. The day touched me, and left me knowing the path and success of my work is beyond all of the words I’ve written down.

I think in pictures to begin with. I love to write, yet that which I see is not words. So I ask you forgive this post. As I work on bringing out a simple event on Tuesday of this week. I can feel and see the event so clearly yet when I start to write I lose the meaning somewhere. I am attempting to describe the explosion in my spirit, filled with Love, sharing it with others, and results that have staggered my essence of thought.

Tuesday, I drove to my first service call in the Dulles Airport. I listened to my recording all the way there. I took out my bag of tools, and computer & case with a large dolly to carry everything. I met my escort Ananda who is from Sri Lanka, India. We went through security, walked and talked for a while, rode a bus, walked about a quarter mile when. Ananda stopped me so excited, and faced me. He said “you have been mediating this whole time, I can sense it with your rhythmic breathing? I said “yes, is this something you desire to learn?”

The Look on Ananda’s face of utter excitement and then he said, “I’ve never been able to do it and I’ve read so much about it.” I asked him “to grab my arm, we will do what it is you have such a desire to learn and BE” I slowed my pace and the path is a long one and I told him not to think of breathing, that comes on its own. Now see, the people, carpet, windows, everything that is moving and that which is not. Bring yourself to right now. You can only BE in one place at a time. (Law of Substitution)”

I told him every day he can add something else. But the idea is to BE in the present moment. When we arrived at the first location for me to do my thing. Ananda so amazed it was hard to just see him, he said “HOW DO YOU DO THAT?” Kind of stern I said “No, we just did that. And every day it gets better”. We spent most of my day there together as several places in the airport. We became friends and talked like we had been friends forever.

I was almost done with my thing and he packed me a lunch and placed it in my computer case. I honestly felt like crying right then. I could feel the Love he was sharing with me. As we left to take me back to security to check my tools back out, we practiced together all the way back. He could not even speak; I can’t describe how that feels. To be part of someone’s dream and to have helped him realize it.

What I can say that focusing on the virtues and with Love in my heart, understanding that while we are operating in that space of life. We have no Law which binds us because as we’ve been taught this is adding to the world, this is changing the world. It may be only one person at a time. But to be there and to be that person empowers you. When I see that some small activity grows and grows, I can feel the Law of Growth moving within me and others.


Week 18 – Walking in the NOW

I read Robert D Watkins Post about Pretending to Understand. So instead of just reading it, I sought to understand how I could apply this. I heard and wrote down the question, from the webby. I did not take it as an exercise that had this level of meaning.

Today I went to work, I drive from one service call to the next and sometimes get parts. I do drive from point to point. I have been in a Hyper Aware mode and use a Mindfulness technique of noticing every little detail of the moment to keep my thoughts from going into the future or the past.

So I’m driving 50 -70 MPH, listening to my recordings with music, tapping my fingers, and noticing everything around me, heat, light, clouds, nature, people, buildings my van, my breath. This is empowering and helps train the brain. I can only handle about 4,000,000,000 connections at a time in my Brain. Info from week 4 webby. So please don’t think this is somehow overloading me.

So let’s get to the point of the Question. “What am I pretending not to Know – to See – to Understand – to Observe.? Now I’m faced with a wonderful thought I don’t like. I don’t want to. No. I genuinely looked at the activities by the second to observe my thoughts. I was stunned how many things I refuse to or pretend not to see.

I had to go back to the beginning and remind my little self – (that one hiding from Seeing) that I am in this process for rest of my life and I want to come to the beginning (some call it the end of this class) with every tool in hand not just the ones I like, ALL of them

So what does the lessons teach us to do here? THINK. OK I gave it 5 and was done. “I don’t like that” visualize a fist fight in the mind. I went there with my old blue print, and that which I intend to become. Oh I could taste the fury. Mark J spoke of this, well not quite like this. By bringing this little question to my awareness, I have begun to defeat this resistance.

As we fight to BE better and Powerful beings & search for the perfect Ideal, expect this difficulty to be no more than a Blessing and perfect Opportunity. Where did I read that one?

I have resolved to BE here and answer the question and the new one OMG. Mark – where do you come up with this stuff. “What would the person I intend to become do Next. Then to make things worse my virtue for this week’s focus is Enthusiasm. So here’s how that went.

I’ve asked myself over 100 times today just that. With Enthusiasm and laughing like a monkey in the Zoo. I am that person and as I ask what are you going to do now Mister Robert. So far I am so happy it just knocks some people right out of there zone.

Laughing me


Today I had a call with a client, I’ve not seen for more than a year. We’ve been like friends since we’ve met. He is a Restaurant Owner and busy like a Bee. Well he came and we shook hands and he asked how I’ve been doing. I said I can’t say. This is my week to focus on Enthusiasm and That would take Hours. I told him what’s happening in my life and how happy I am. He wanted to know more and we stayed talking for the entire hour and he helped me all the while. The compliment he gave me, touched me. When I was leaving and he shook my hand he said, “Thank You for coming by today and being of service to this restaurant, to me and I’ll always hold you in my spirit for this meeting today. Thank You. You have changed so dramatically and are so happy, but did you notice everyone in this place is listening to us.” I said “Yes, and if I could brighten up the day of One what not all”. I almost had to cry right then and there I was so moved to see the entire staff in back where we were, was just standing there watching.

How do you leave that kind of Love, and go back to work? Mark J. says it pretty grand “I Love a Mystery”.




An event in my life happened on Friday at the end of our combined study and Mastermind work with Kindness. I was driving to my Office to get a part I needed for next service call. My supervisor heard me come in and called me into his office. He created an argument where there was none. At some point he asked me to “step outside for a minute”. I was confused and went anyway. He became very angry and this is normally when his abuse causes many in the recent past to quit.

I told him he was giving me a headache, because I needed to get away from him. I got into my company van and was about to leave and he assaulted the van trying to get me out. I went home and called his Supervisor. I stayed home the rest of the day. I was very upset and angry. Decided to slow down and think this through. I was able to sleep that night. I heard “The Call” to do something. My fear and wanting to conform or just to give in was present. “The refusal to answer the Call” I could most likely lose my job and cause unknown heart ache in my life. I prayed and waited for confirmation of what I wanted to do as being the right path.

The next day I got up and worked nonstop 17 hours+, completing my service calls. My thoughts were to focus everything I have on ONE goal. “stop this abuse to others”. I meditated on that for that day and the next. Every cell in my being concentrated on that single thought. Sunday night I sat down and completed what I knew was my plan of action in an email to be sent to several in my company.


I began to write an email. At some point of extreme focusing of my entire being towards the one single goal; I hit the SEND button. The Fear was immense because I was beyond turning back now, “this was like dying to me” My heart sank knowing my existence with this company could end here. I risked everything on one thought “Stop this abuse to others” (PPN – Helping Others) Then with my Faith & knowledge being applied. “MKMMA was my helper”  I got up and allowed my being to be detached from the outcome. The emotions I felt were so powerful, yet brought a Peace to me Within. “This is the rebirth”

Monday morning, and the next 2 days were so full of action. Time and words would not even touch all of the events. Tuesday, the new manager came in. He dismissed my supervisor of his position (completely in secret).  Many thought they would close the office and send us down the road. I got a lot of phone calls with fear and “What If’s” Finally it was communicated that a meeting would be for all of the Branch to be at a meeting Wednesday morning at 8:00AM. No agenda given. The Fear was so high with my coworkers that I began to doubt, but did not crumble under this FEAR.

Wednesday morning came and I sat there completely aware that I was responsible for this and was ready, I thought at that moment. My existence with this company was in the hands of this man I’ve never met before.

This manager named Steve, began to speak. I was hit with a completely unexpected outcome relating to the actions of the past week. The manager with which I had an issue was no longer a manager(35 years with the company). We are all now in an expanded version of our Branch. Steve and I sat down after the meeting and discussed my concerns and actions, as well as the rest one by one spoke and gave their concerns. Everything was resolved to our combined desires. We are facing some changes in the way our daily work happens. Since talking to all; these changes are welcomed. “Transformation”

I stepped aside and Forgave Bill in silence since he was not there. I also forgave myself for allowing my anger/emotions to be out of control.  That was “Atonement” I thanked God for answering the prayer, and bringing about a condition of WIN WIN to our office. “that is the Return”

I applied the knowledge I have learned in the MKMMA with such power that I am grateful, and blown right out of my socks. (this was my Helper along the way). I have an experience that to have the knowledge and to apply it properly brings about effects with tremendous Power. I had a difficult time to bring myself to this page and explain it.

Doing so; is not for me.

I desire that you know what we are doing on this Journey in the MKMMA has in it, exactly what you give. I gave everything I had to this event, I received so much more than I actually know how to explain. It is still unfolding at a speed that words have no design to encompass it’s full meaning. I can remember exactly how Davene said “give more & get more” in a lesson. My understanding was not in the words she spoke. My thought was how exactly am I going to DO that. The description of this event shows you that if we build into our being; strength. The Day you need it, even though it’s scary; that strength is there for you to use as you will.

I pray we all use our Strength and this Power, Properly for the Good of Others.



Week 17Hero’s Journey – Cause & effects

Engaging in the week of Kindness; viewing most of the comments made in Mastermind alliance, has brought a completely different focus into my Spirit. To be Kind, to observe kindness, or virtues, first begins within me. As this is impaling the whole of my Spirit, subby, the desire is to absorb this Ideal into my being. I had two most eventful weeks, with just about every emotion I know of in force. Not fully processed yet.


Wisdom is now all around us. Or has it always been there? Is awareness bringing something in that was just created? As thoughts flow and permissions given. Brings such power and mostly the desire to share it. In this I know Love is in that feeling, desire and ultimately a worthy cause.


I went back to MK Lesson 2 line 14 and see clearly that I’ve set up the Watchman at my gate. As this enters the spirit, forming a thought to bring a cause into being, is remarkable. Making the shift to within and guide this power is so new and exciting, that emotions are flying, soring like eagles. Should I search on Google for a Super Hero Cape? Goodness would it even fit, something is growing Within?


Creativity which has always filled this Spirit, is back many fold. Goosebumps is a normal part of just being anymore. Being so excited and determined has brought out changes in others, or is my Awareness finally seeing that? Things are changing around me & I’m loving & creating it. As this understanding of the Power we all hold grows Within; so does the World grow with us.


I Love the Sit, Mindfulness. The quietness is many things, but has been more than even ever explained. Thinking that it would end there was a huge mistake. To be completely Truthful this returning to who we really are is taking place exactly as planned, created with Love. To embrace this as it is, has been an Opportunity desired and manifested.


By being present in almost everything I do, gives me such energy, I am not fully aware of it at times, as to the effect I’m having with others. To be here, in the NOW, is so delightful and full of Joy, that I’m finding more ways to be completely focused and Mindful by the second.


May unseen Blessings & Light surround you.

Week 17 “ONE PERSON”

Today my friend told me a delightful story. A month ago I gave him a series of 9 videos and some links to watch “Truth about Cancer”, because His best friend was diagnosed with lung cancer and they watched all 9 videos. He did not go back to the doctor and have surgery, nor the 1 year of chemo therapy. He went to a state that allows treatments using a Holistic method with his wife. Spent 3 weeks and is cancer free. They also tested for the “cancer Steam cells also”.

What is significant about this event is when my wife was reading my DMP months ago, and don’t remember what version it was. I told her with chills in my whole body with a desire I still remember, how I said it, how I felt, The vision in the complete version. “I want most in life to use this (DMP statement) to have ONE person walk the face of the earth healed by my “helping Others” and the information I’ve learned.” I have never written one word in my DMP about this emotion nor the burning desire to help one person escape the Death Trap that is being used for treating Cancer at the moment.

I sit here and write wishing to express this feeling of Joy so grand, and all I can do is write and let the tears fall. I can visualize things clearly and not that aware of being focused on the desire. Now I can see how it happened and the Thought I kept before the subby to manifest it. I feel like I was asking for so little to help just one. He is coming back today with his wife, to meet with family and friends. So just maybe I should count more being touched than just that one.

I get to go meet with him and feel troubled with how to react to this event. He is the first and I pray not the last. I know how to do it and have to admit the emotions was tied to my anger of the mess in the current medical system we live with. My thought was only concentrating and positive desire and enthusiasm would bring about manifestation of such action. In Truth I’m still Angry with what I see in the medical system. I am achieving a way to empower this emotion in better light.

Week 16 I chose to focus differently


This week of Kindness has had up and downs. We have had a tragedy, and Love & sharing. I’ve observed kind acts and done some. I’ve been caught and invisible. The observation of all this brought me to a very different place. I have experience with some things, and have not the power to transfer it to another. I Love my little daughter (21 years old now, still little to me) and I most wanted to take the pain away by giving of my experience. That I cannot do.


So to surrender to the feeling and detach from the outcome I wanted, was like crossing the ocean with an inner tube and feet to paddle. Feeling lost and in pain, I went to my little one. I found in her strength and amazing Love for others that I’ve admired in her this week. I was able to see her deal with her best friend who is completely distraught at the present. The funeral is Sunday and the mom of the boy does not like her so my little one is going with her, to defend her, to be her voice if needed.


So much can happen in 1 day. We can make choices which help or hurt. According to Haanel the 2 are inseparable. We cannot have only good. The desire to never see the evil, does not make it disappear forever. So I am talking with the little one and see that she is using many of the principles of the class I’m in. This is working for her without any understanding in what I would judge. Then I realize she is around me every day and has been listening and asking what is that for. (DMP board)++++


I come to the moment we sit down to write and visualize the week & what all happened, my little one with all my fears of her being in too much pain. Taught me more than I could offer. Great lesson, well why do I feel pain. I was not totally detached from the outcome and not completely surrendered.


I said that what she was doing for her best friend was very kind. Her reply: “Daddy that is what friends do for each other” So my desire to BE Kind all week had a bonus of bringing me to my knees and a little taste of humility with it. I appreciate the lessons and really filled my being with joy reading the many – not all – of the comments in the MM & Kindnesses tab.