Category Archives: Week 1 – 9

WEEK 9 “Climbing a Cliff”

This week has had some great times. The most exciting is I got to experience something I had visualized in my mind. Clearly saw what it is that I wanted to create. While this event happened I felt like I was watching a TV. The words in my DMP were not even close to what it was I wanted to create. The simple nature of this, has given me the path of rewriting my Definite Major Purpose in life. The excitement in my heart has not been containable. I feel rewarded for the effort, yet know I’m climbing a cliff and have a ways to go.

 

What exactly happened was a Car crash. A less than perfect driver crashed into my company vehicle, my personal vehicle, and a guest’s car that was totaled. This happened late this past Saturday. We rescued the driver and he did not have any apparent injuries. All of us were inside the house. Monday night my wife and son were discussing the event and my daughter joined us.

 

We shared the fears, our opinions, the what if’s, and the “Oh goodness what are we going to do”. I asked that we forgive this person and invite him to our Thanksgiving dinner. We didn’t actually know who he was and still don’t. I was so blown away because this is not how we have been as a family but is exactly what I visualized in the DMP.

 

We were able to accept the difference of Opinions we all had and agreed to forgive and not carry the burden of the event anywhere else. I cannot describe the confusion when I was writing the DMP over and over and My Wonderful Guide kept asking “what does that look like” My old blueprint was resisting every letter in the email. And before we broke up the family meeting. I finally understood the words Debbie asked and Why, because I lived them. So for Debbie, blessings and Thank You.

 

I now have experienced the completeness of one of the major objects in my DMP, and must admit I was asking for little.  I need to be shooting much higher, for the real desire and thoughts of the family we are and are becoming.

 

So that you know this is the first thing I had in my DMP. It was the heaviest thing on my heart. I prayed and cried to God for the Wisdom to bring this about. I imaged before never being able to be a part of this. Now I can say that “within” me I know how to bring this about as a permanent structure of this family. I know this is more than I asked for in words. But this event was exactly what I visualized in my spirit.

 

As visualizing is  part of the class this week. I can shout from the roof tops

I got this one

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Week 8 Lost: My comfort Zone

Week 8 Lost: My comfort Zone

 

I am becoming more aware of the words I choose and choose not to use and what exactly comes out of my mouth. I write what I mean and what  I use to take what seemed like an eternity to write a page of thoughts is now effortless. I can understand the heart of the message of a lady Mark J. shared of her decision making and the gap that was gone now.

Today I read the Press Release and tears started to fall. I have wanted so much to be rid of the emotions and now that I’m learning to embrace them. I soar with imagination and energy. Who would ever think I could bring this biggest fear into my life and accept it as a Gift from God

Reading the blogs of others gave me a joy this week that I’ve searched in my memories and did not find. We are all connected by this event. We see ourselves so different and miles from each other. Yet when I feel the words spoken in the words written, and try not to give meaning to them, something happens inside me. I see and feel  how we are connected and the Power that it gives us.

 

Now what. I read the Poem by Marianne Williamson “Our Greatest Fear” about a week and half ago. I decided I wanted the most powerful piece of music that would move my spirit. I knew what I wanted and focused till I found it. I wanted a powerful beyond measure DMP recording. I read the “how to” on the DC tab and oooooppppppsssss. Wasn’t expecting to receive more than I focused on. Every cell in my body felt the song and the tears just started again. I want to embrace the tears and can say the words, but sometimes it’s not working the way I want. This week especially. I’m reaching for the stars and hitting them.

 

I finished the recording and copied it to my phone and listened. Knowing full well I’ll take this to work – on the road and the Tears just rocked my whole being. I wanted powerful, I got it. My thoughts are more of how do I deal with MORE than I want. Well now I’m not sure if I go for the POA cards now or not. I have a equally powerful song in the same folder. I went to a Promise Keepers Event in Oakland at the Raiders Stadium with about 60,000 men and in another stadium were about 40,000 more men. My song is one we all sang together. That was about 100,000 Christian men worshiping God. Only one word describes this for me, “POWER” Then the enormous  blessing from heaven served us lunch. About 25,000 women/wife’s/daughters, grandmothers. I don’t have a problem wrapping my heart around the “Great this day with Love in my heart” after that.

 

This event was more than 20 years ago, and still moves me to my core, I don’t even understand it all to this day. It just does. I have been afraid to speak of it because of how it makes me feel and the emotions it stirs up.

 

This week I’m still working for 7 consecutive days without staying on a negative thought. I’m in a place that I’ve never been. I can see the reactions and the stimulus happening now and have slowed that down to. I wanted change and had an idea of what that would look like based on past successes and failures. This place I’m in is way beyond all that. I’m touching and walking with the real me and it scares me and brings tears, The fear that use to grip me with things is not even a full memory any more. And I read again the poem and the part “Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.” Is starting to look possible and if that is where I’m at. How would I know. I’ve never walked in this field. I can’t find or need the Comfort Zone anymore.

 

This journey pleases me, scares me, is moving at the speed of light, impacts others in ways I fail to understand yet. Children like my grandkids respond differently, only one is old enough to talk. I need a new definition of success. Even my DMP seems weak now.

 

 

Week 7 The diet oh how Wonderful

Week 7 The diet

 

I heard Mark J on the intro video. Then I read the diet’s instructions. I am still laughing. I let you know if I get it or not. 1st. I’m getting use to the idea of focusing on giving no opinions and now this. In the application I found myself to be more negative than I’ve ever accepted

 

Ok this took a while but I can see the beauty of being in the place I want to be I need to change something in a big way. WOW Thursday was my first day to make it 24 hours on the mental diet. And now I’m getting home late from a conference and need to finish the blog for the week and I’m running strong and positive. Made it 48 hours.

 

I found the 7 Laws of the Mind helped when I applied the Law of substitution and the Law of Relaxation. Over all this made this week mentally a work out. I was over working the mind to make it happen. When I relaxed and took time before I reacted I did fine. My issue is the driving mostly. I thought it was “without” and thanks to the continued reading and looking “within” I was able to apply the solution.

 

I feel great and at peace with the Diet and the class. I enjoyed the sit time so much. My grandma who died 30+ years ago joined me in a session of visualization. I felt so happy to tell her about my life and the changes I’ve made and asked her how it was going up in heaven. Delightful exercise. I still Love my Mama Wren. I’m glad the lady called in on the webby and asked if the person must be alive to continue with the exercise.

 

More each day the 2nd scroll is melting the cement of my hardened heart. I’m able to observe more and truly move in the positive attitude and be kind. Loving all of mankind is now possible in my thoughts. I struggled with the concept at first and realized the effort put out by so many souls I don’t even see is giving me this opportunity. I also found I tied into all this the “be the nonjudgmental Observer” and stopped doing something very subtle in my life.

 

I appreciate people past and present more than ever. I’m more thankful for all I have and am being given. I’m so glad the world is changing for me this fast.

 

Thank You for all who are participating in this class.

Week 6 “Digging in the MUD”

Week 6

 

Reading the “Law of Compensation” now the 3nd time this week. It seems as wise thing to do, and each time, I see the contents differently. I’m open to new. I no longer fighting the language of old but appreciate the underling meaning. I plan on reading in the morning when the openness of thought is wider than at night filtered by the day’s events.

 

I finally have gotten over the resistance of wanting it the old way. That is my old blueprint of life for me. I am so far outside of my comfort zone that I get glimpses of who I am under all the masks and lies I’ve made for who knows what reason. I truly am enjoying life, the people I meet, basically everyone. At first my thought is the class is changing the world and I felt thankful. Finally the way it should always have been.

 

Then I observed a little more deeply at myself and what’s been happening with all the different exercises. I remembered the words of several people of the last class and the words “life changing” rang out many times. This is more than that, it may defy my being able to describe it. Here goes:

 

I was young and went through many trails. Some making me stronger some made me lash out and do unwise things. Behind it all there was me. The true person God intended me to be with a purpose. As I finished school and left home to conquer the world. I soon realized I was poorly prepared for task at hand. Getting married and having children shifted the focus. Going through several divorces change the focus and Hate was now a daily activity in my life.

 

I had all the information to succeed. I’ve known success and failure. I got back up after a failure. My focus was always on the fire to be put out before me. Leadership classes and books would bore you with such details. Most of the information was just that. Information, and feel like I was drowning in it.

 

Before this class started I prayed for Wisdom. Long story. I was offered a chance to come to this class. I saw the “Open Door” and with some skepticism, I applied. I was committed to improve my life no matter what happened in the class. Then it hit me. I received exactly what I prayed for and did not recognize it for what it was.

 

I feel now that Wisdom has surrounded me and lifted me up and carried me through the ignorance I was allowing in my life. The difference in this class is so simple I can describe it and most will dismiss it. We are staying with the thought, ideas and exercises long enough for it to enter our minds and affect us for more than a week after completion.

 

One of the classes I attended was Rapport Leadership. Of which I attended two different modules. They were 3-4 days long. Wonderfully prepared and presented. I felt like a king when I left. Then life being what it is and the habits we never dealt with came in and destroyed my accomplishment with my help, I don’t think I actually knew that at the moment.

 

We are in the 6th week of class and have 18 more to go that I know of. As for me and my house. We will continue this for the rest of our lives and hand it down to all whom we contact.

 

Personally this is more than “life changing” more like digging in the mud and finding the most valuable treasure I’ve ever known. Then realizing I can truly help others in life because I’ve received something real, I’ve got myself back. I can share with you anything I actually possess.

 

Week 5 Like Hell- – “EMBRACE IT”

 

 

I knew something had to be done with the emotions I’ve never been able to control completely. Listening to Mark J on the webbys. He plainly says several times to Embrace it. I have hated, ran away, prayed for the destruction of my over emotional state at times. After the webby Sunday, I broke down and could not stop the tears & crying in silence.

 

It took about an hour and a half to rewrite the DMP because I could not see the computer. A friend had just passed and the circumstances of his death were horrible. This is common place in my life of not being able to control my feelings.

 

I went with my wife before this class began,  to receive prayer with the elders of my church. I wanted this emotional being gone from me and I supposed that God would understand that by now and grant this thing.

 

I can feel more about you than what you say, I can see what you feel with a word not spoken. I’ve felt cursed my whole life. I’ve hidden it, lied about it, pasted cement on it like the Golden Buddha, and the words that I had to own was “how has that worked out for you. It’s been a total failure to run from it.

 

The Monday came and I went to work. Tears all day, Crap not this again, I’m thinking. Then I focused every ounce of energy to my thoughts and somewhere from within, my answer came out before I got home.

 

“EMBRACE IT” I could hear,  Mark J. Accept it, this is a Gift from God. Scared the heck out of me to feel that for once in my entire life, stop running and accept this. I will admit as I write I still don’t know what it means to embrace it. How to do this. With the tears falling, I was trying to read the little cards and couldn’t. So I did the “Do it Now” and “I can be what I will to be”-I’m still fighting this answer

 

I did not like it. But I did recognize the truth and Wisdom in what I was feeling. My advice be careful when praying for wisdom, you may not like the answer given.

 

I got home and started to write the Press Release. I was told no rules, no limit. Well I imagined a friend interviewing me because anybody else scared me too much to continue. I kept writing, as if in,  the future how I made it proudly past this bump in the road and was now living happily with my Gift.

 

What I wrote in the Press release though never able to fully tell the story and leave it complete. Has only been told to one person in my entire life. And Grandma is long since dead now.

 

So if we meet some day, I’ll not run and hide because, tears in my life are from pain, joy, peace, baby’s laughing and just about anything else, Because you will see the man God created in me. My Golden Buddha………………………..

Week 4 “OUR GREATEST FEAR”

Today I was searching for a poem I printed out years ago and couldn’t stop till I found it.

 

“Our Deepest Fear” by Marianne Williamson, one point which links me to the poem was when she said, “We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us, It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.”

 

Then I received a Gift of a poem titled “The Invitation” by Oriah Mountain Dreamer. I was able to see the beauty in the words and come to a understanding that words transport us to so many  places and in so many ways.

 

The internal focus to find something grinding inside to remember stayed there till I found it. Both of which embodies my journey and my fears. Concentrating thought truly works wonders.

 

I am awaking inside and thoughts are moving at speeds that sadly show I’ve been asleep for many years. Feeling good, sad, Great, yet completely focused on the year ahead. I can see that I am who God created and using the power within me for the good of others.

 

The beauty of this world is but for receiving it. I can smell it, I can touch it, I can hear it, and see so much my emotions wrinkle my skin. Boundless Joy just receiving what’s already there. “WITH IN” But giving a gift has change the world before me. I observe this and just smile from deep within and when it bubbles up. Everyone around me is happy. WOW

I’m liking this journey and adventure.

Week 3 Feels MY BRAIN is still here I think!!!

Week 3 Feels Like a marble in a tin can, MY BRAIN.

I’m reading, rewriting the DMP. Every time I think I’m done I’m not. I want it to express my core needs in a way it take me and our family where we should be. I’ve never really taken this kind of time and thought about what I want for me. I’ve done a lot more for work and others. Today I was going to stop and do the DMP just on getting DMP done perfectly. Well I had to laugh – still laughing. I did focus on it and my brain feels tired. I always keep my promises. So I’ll get ER Done.

I’m having fun with the “do it now” by singing it in a different voice every time. Actually sounds good to me using the 99 bottles of bear melody. Sometimes I’m Yogi talking to BOO BOO the bear. Glad nobody is listening while I’m driving.

Now I absolutely understand what is going on in my life in just a few weeks. I have replaced meaningless desires and choices with Wisdom. I prayed for wisdom and have received it and not how I expected. In the first Scroll it mentions Wisdom 3 times and now I absolutely get the difference of reading and receiving the gift.

Goodness I’d be happy right now if I could just get straight what I want. I thought that would be the easiest and I’m resisting with the old blueprint. I am getting it but not putting it on paper. Then our precious Mark says that indecision is the trademark of a Control Freak. Yikes nailed it. OK I’m over it. I’ll clear my mind and take time to focus on exactly what I want, how to write that out. & “do it now”

I am changing nearly every aspect of my life. I’ve stopped watching TV & radio entirely before the class started. I have found it hard to believe how much time I have now to get things done. Then I realized by something Mark J. said about the media. The amount of negative bombardments I was suffering every day was no less than horrendous. I’m much more positive and focused. I thought I would be left out of so much. Really I have time to sit and spend time having dinner with my family. I was faking BUSY, now that I look back.

I am happy and completely enthusiastic about the changes being made in my life. Looking for what is within is so new to me that I draw a blank at time. When I take it out to the end of next year. Done with class, GS, and chance to work exclusively on my new business, spending time with my family like I should have been doing all along. And yes retiring soon. What I see is where I should have been many, many years ago.

Now I’ll correct all that and allow my Light to shine brightly like never before

Care and Blessing to all

Robert