I watched the webinar this past Sunday. Frankly I thought Mark had lost it. Doesn’t he know we have this busy life we have created. I have never done such a thing for just me in my life. I have excuses so justified I could have gone to court. Then at some point, my heart shifted and I asked for help from my Wonderful Raphaela.
The idea or vision I had was to go up to a Retreat we have previously visited last year. I sensed Fear of the Unknown. I asked that she help me get the week end. I looked at my calendar and decided to do this no matter what. She found the number and I called and got reservations for Friday night to Sunday afternoon. Then I decided to fast the entire time.
I desire to live in the Present Now-Here, so I did not allow myself to experience the weekend while I’m still home. I asked the Holy Spirit for the Wisdom, Truth, and for the Gift that I’ve been given to be brought out in a clear term. Truth be told here, FEAR is present in me as I am putting this together and doing the small things needing to be done.
Then from nowhere I received a sense of Peace about this Plan/Vision I have. I need paper and a pen to write. I know the answers I seek will be found because I am “working and being that which I want”. Very much like wanting more Love in my Life is not enough, I must BE more Loving to get that. Wisdom is preparing me for this Silence. I am in AWE of how this is coming together, mentally & physically & even more Spiritually.
At this moment as I sit and write, my spirit is in full Gratitude mode. Thankful for this lesson of FEAR, crushed by Love, and correct desire to attain the most I AM. The feeling that I Know this will go well is kinda weird. Strangely I know this is not coming from me. Yes, my study/focus Virtue for the week is Taking Initiative.
I realize many of the ridiculous exercises we’ve done have brought out the best in me. I have formed habits and released many if not all of the bad habits. The total effect has brought me this lesson this week, and it’s not in the course, it is in my life.
“Efforts and courage are not enough without purpose and direction.” – – JFK
Your days be full of Joy, Laughter, and Happy