I read Robert D Watkins Post about Pretending to Understand. So instead of just reading it, I sought to understand how I could apply this. I heard and wrote down the question, from the webby. I did not take it as an exercise that had this level of meaning.
Today I went to work, I drive from one service call to the next and sometimes get parts. I do drive from point to point. I have been in a Hyper Aware mode and use a Mindfulness technique of noticing every little detail of the moment to keep my thoughts from going into the future or the past.
So I’m driving 50 -70 MPH, listening to my recordings with music, tapping my fingers, and noticing everything around me, heat, light, clouds, nature, people, buildings my van, my breath. This is empowering and helps train the brain. I can only handle about 4,000,000,000 connections at a time in my Brain. Info from week 4 webby. So please don’t think this is somehow overloading me.
So let’s get to the point of the Question. “What am I pretending not to Know – to See – to Understand – to Observe.? Now I’m faced with a wonderful thought I don’t like. I don’t want to. No. I genuinely looked at the activities by the second to observe my thoughts. I was stunned how many things I refuse to or pretend not to see.
I had to go back to the beginning and remind my little self – (that one hiding from Seeing) that I am in this process for rest of my life and I want to come to the beginning (some call it the end of this class) with every tool in hand not just the ones I like, ALL of them
So what does the lessons teach us to do here? THINK. OK I gave it 5 and was done. “I don’t like that” visualize a fist fight in the mind. I went there with my old blue print, and that which I intend to become. Oh I could taste the fury. Mark J spoke of this, well not quite like this. By bringing this little question to my awareness, I have begun to defeat this resistance.
As we fight to BE better and Powerful beings & search for the perfect Ideal, expect this difficulty to be no more than a Blessing and perfect Opportunity. Where did I read that one?
I have resolved to BE here and answer the question and the new one OMG. Mark – where do you come up with this stuff. “What would the person I intend to become do Next. Then to make things worse my virtue for this week’s focus is Enthusiasm. So here’s how that went.
I’ve asked myself over 100 times today just that. With Enthusiasm and laughing like a monkey in the Zoo. I am that person and as I ask what are you going to do now Mister Robert. So far I am so happy it just knocks some people right out of there zone.
Today I had a call with a client, I’ve not seen for more than a year. We’ve been like friends since we’ve met. He is a Restaurant Owner and busy like a Bee. Well he came and we shook hands and he asked how I’ve been doing. I said I can’t say. This is my week to focus on Enthusiasm and That would take Hours. I told him what’s happening in my life and how happy I am. He wanted to know more and we stayed talking for the entire hour and he helped me all the while. The compliment he gave me, touched me. When I was leaving and he shook my hand he said, “Thank You for coming by today and being of service to this restaurant, to me and I’ll always hold you in my spirit for this meeting today. Thank You. You have changed so dramatically and are so happy, but did you notice everyone in this place is listening to us.” I said “Yes, and if I could brighten up the day of One what not all”. I almost had to cry right then and there I was so moved to see the entire staff in back where we were, was just standing there watching.
How do you leave that kind of Love, and go back to work? Mark J. says it pretty grand “I Love a Mystery”.