This week of Kindness has had up and downs. We have had a tragedy, and Love & sharing. I’ve observed kind acts and done some. I’ve been caught and invisible. The observation of all this brought me to a very different place. I have experience with some things, and have not the power to transfer it to another. I Love my little daughter (21 years old now, still little to me) and I most wanted to take the pain away by giving of my experience. That I cannot do.
So to surrender to the feeling and detach from the outcome I wanted, was like crossing the ocean with an inner tube and feet to paddle. Feeling lost and in pain, I went to my little one. I found in her strength and amazing Love for others that I’ve admired in her this week. I was able to see her deal with her best friend who is completely distraught at the present. The funeral is Sunday and the mom of the boy does not like her so my little one is going with her, to defend her, to be her voice if needed.
So much can happen in 1 day. We can make choices which help or hurt. According to Haanel the 2 are inseparable. We cannot have only good. The desire to never see the evil, does not make it disappear forever. So I am talking with the little one and see that she is using many of the principles of the class I’m in. This is working for her without any understanding in what I would judge. Then I realize she is around me every day and has been listening and asking what is that for. (DMP board)++++
I come to the moment we sit down to write and visualize the week & what all happened, my little one with all my fears of her being in too much pain. Taught me more than I could offer. Great lesson, well why do I feel pain. I was not totally detached from the outcome and not completely surrendered.
I said that what she was doing for her best friend was very kind. Her reply: “Daddy that is what friends do for each other” So my desire to BE Kind all week had a bonus of bringing me to my knees and a little taste of humility with it. I appreciate the lessons and really filled my being with joy reading the many – not all – of the comments in the MM & Kindnesses tab.